Holding the Rain

Rain falls gently in the night

Cold droplets on my skin

Washing me clean of the world

Worry and fear rolling down

Dripping from me

Into puddles of memory

That pools at my feet

My face turned to the sky

Welcoming the cleansing sky

Clearing my mind of doubt

It cascades down my back

And then it is gone

Bathed in the open air

Feeling both old

And at the same instant

Brand new in every way

The breath drawing in

The smell of the storm

Lingers in the atmosphere

And in this moment

I am suddenly so free

And suddenly so small

Yet I am everywhere

The drizzle falling across my hands

And I give myself to it freely

As it gives itself freely to me

We meet in an impossible embrace

I hold the storm

And the storm holds me

Still Me

A cloudy night

Nights and days running together

Hard to keep track

Hard to concentrate

Feeling alone

Has never felt so lonely

Memory drifting

And a longing remains

Waiting for the clouds to lift

Revealing a clear sky

And a bright tomorrow

But for now I wait

Trying to remember the day

The week

The month

Temporary solitude

Is still solitude

Even the words struggle

To become a thought

To become something

More than a jumble

A cluster of memories

Flowing together into dreams

Dreams that are fleeting

And sometimes I wonder

If I'm becoming muddled

Jumbled fragments of me

Trying to remain a person

And not just a concept

Is it an existential crisis?

I cannot say

As fragmented thoughts

And partial memories

Float about my mind

Is this new?

Or have I just begun to notice?

I close my eyes

And I recall my face

And realize I'm still me

I'm still here

Whoever that may be today

Through the confusion and pain

I am still here

I am still me

Summer Breeze

You danced through the forest of my mind
Like a leaf caught in a summer breeze
Not as a memory reflecting in a pool
But something from the here and now
Beautiful as ever I watched you glide
The wind lifting you over any obstacle
Your marvelous form carried along
I followed you with my eyes
Mesmerized by all that you are
And as the wind delivered you
Out into the open meadow airs
I got up to chase after the summer breeze
Trying so hard to not lose sight
Of the most beautiful thing I had ever seen
Praying even just for a moment longer
That my vision could be filled with you
And a longing filled my aching heart
That if I could catch you for a moment
I’d never want to let you go
Afraid that the summer breeze would stir
And remove you from my eyes once more

Asking the Moon

A starless sky greeted me
In the dark of the night
The cool crisp air
Brushed against my cheek
It touched me gently
As the silent moon looked on
And as it shone down
I felt you in the wind
Wrapped around my body
I was strangely warmed
In that quiet moment
I was no longer alone
But I could feel you
I closed my eyes
And there you were
I lingered in the night
Just wanting it to last
Asking that moon to let you stay