Christmas Night

The stars were out
On Christmas night
From far away
They shone their light
In weather pleasant
I went walking
A silent night
Without much talking
A gentle breeze
Brushed my face
And all was calm
In this winter place
No church bells rang
No carol singing
Just the darkness
The night was bringing
But all around me
Peace was there
In my footsteps
And on the air
It filled my heart
And so I smiled
In the night
Gentle and mild
I breathed it in
As I walked along
My heart now filled
With joyful song
Of peace on Earth
Of Santa's sleigh
Of being home
On Christmas day
Of Christmas trees
And noses so red
Of joy to the world
With mistletoe overhead
And even alone
On Christmas night
We have seen great darkness
But still find a great light
I step forward again
As the night closes in
Knowing a new day
Will soon begin
It is up to me
To remember it all
When winter has passed
And spring comes to call
Christmas is here
And will never depart
When you keep Christmas joy
Alive in your heart
Merry Christmas to you
May blessings abound
And keep Christmas with you
All the year round

I Was There

Fresh night air
So calm and cool
The dog runs through snow
Endless exploring
My tired eyes try to track
Footprints in the snow
I close my eyes
I breathe in
The only sounds
Are from paws pattering
And snow crunching
Underneath my boots
The world is asleep
And ice blankets the ground
The only star I see
Is right above my head
In that moment
As I peer up at it
I cannot help but feel
That star staring back
Wondering who will blink
To close this connection
The dog pulls
Ready to move on
The sky feels distant again
But I can't help but feel
For one moment
I was there

Christmas Bells

A Christmas carol plays

In the lonely night

I sit sipping whiskey

Looking out at the snow

A solitary street light

Brings no warmth

But only allows vision

It flickers and dims

And I am left alone

Sitting in the dark

Ding Dong Ding Dong

Christmas bells are ringing

Syringes at Midnight

Brushing teeth
In the middle of the night
I have no idea why
A drink to clear the head
Wanting something
Anything to numb the pain
A cry in the darkness
Rings out in dead silence
Shaking and hesitation
Not wanting what comes next
But needing it
Finally there is calm
With closed eyes
A willingness to accept it
What must come next
To be able to sleep again
Escaping the suffering
With tired resolve
And syringes at midnight

Sleepless Night

Another sleepless night
Crying awakens me
And disturbs my rest
I wipe away the tears
And I pray for sleep
The pain is too much
For one heart to hold
Perhaps this time
Sleep will come
And I may dream again

Loving Our Very Existance

Indiscriminately
Walking in lingering lines
Aware like water around youthful seas
Living out various eternities
Yet our utterances
Alive not dead
Intertwine
Calling another nameless night over time
Dreaming outside
Another night yields to holding in nascent gratification
Every longing sounding everlasting
Built up tonight
Loving our very existence
Yesterday’s overtures unending
Finding our reality entering vast eternal rest

Christmas Habits

Don't you dare judge me
There's nothing you can say
It doesn't matter what you think
Maybe you should walk away

Because I don't plan on changing
Even if push comes to shove
You may ask why I don't stop
I can't stop doing what I love

So even when it hurts
Even if I feel the pain
I'll keep on coming back
I'll do it again and again

You don't get to judge me friend
If you see something in my eye
You can't shame me just because
Christmas movies make me cry