Syringes at Midnight

Brushing teeth
In the middle of the night
I have no idea why
A drink to clear the head
Wanting something
Anything to numb the pain
A cry in the darkness
Rings out in dead silence
Shaking and hesitation
Not wanting what comes next
But needing it
Finally there is calm
With closed eyes
A willingness to accept it
What must come next
To be able to sleep again
Escaping the suffering
With tired resolve
And syringes at midnight

Sleepless Night

Another sleepless night
Crying awakens me
And disturbs my rest
I wipe away the tears
And I pray for sleep
The pain is too much
For one heart to hold
Perhaps this time
Sleep will come
And I may dream again

Was Is Am

Ghostly apparitions
Appearing in my sleep
Causing me to wake
But what did I see?
A spectre of the past?
A vision of the future?
Was I afraid of who I was?
Or was I more afraid
Of who I would be?
Or was I simply dreaming
About who I am?
Or could it be
I don't know who
I was, is, or am becoming?
I roll over
And hope this time
That I dream of nothing...

Snowy Fields

Across the snowy fields

I follow your footsteps

Seeking for only you

Just to see you once more

Though feet may feel heavy

Your face warms my being

And I can continue

Seeking one I adore

The cold may be biting

My face may become numb

When I think about you

I regain my vigor

A white veil before me

But I never forget

The passion of your touch

That moves me to my core

I carry on renewed

When my legs cannot move

A thought of you with me

My spirits you restore

So, through the frozen lands

My legs carry me on

Until they deliver me

To fall upon your door

And if this is but dream

When I’m with you again

Oh! Let me sleep my friend

Upon your sunlit shore

Make You Smile

I stirred myself awake

And wondered

If I exploded a thousand suns

To light up the heavens

In a dazzling array of light and color

Would it look like a candle

When compared to your beauty?

Could I ever hope to replicate

How magnificent you are

When viewed through my eyes?

I could type a thousand lifetimes

And still not find the right words to say

But I would spend them all

Searching for the ones

That would make you smile

Dreams of You

I can hear the rain falling outside
The thunder echoes across the night
Like the lightning pierces the darkness
You pierce my dreams
And a flood of thoughts rush in
Through the broken window of my mind
Do I deny myself the dream?
No, no, no, I cannot
The raindrops land against the window
Soft and fleeting
Just as you are in my mind
Entering a room here
Exiting before I can see you
I walk through the door
And all I find is the empty twilight
You touch my shoulder
I turn and catch a whisper
Like the wind through the trees
I swear it calls my name
My eyes open for just a moment
Just for that moment I know where I am
But the sound of the rain lulls me to sleep
Pulling me back in
To dreams of you

Dreaming

Sleep my dear, the sleep of kings
And dream dreams of many things
And if in dream I do appear
Don't be afraid to draw me near
For in your head I am not sad
And you can dream of fun we had
In your dreams I shed no tears
Just sweet nothings for your ears
Just sleep my dear, close your eyes
And dream of open and blue skies

Written  June of 2000

Haiku of Slumber

The wife could not sleep
I put on The Civil Wars
Slumber has set in

- Author's Notes
I don't write many like this, but I felt like trying it out.