Say You're Pretty

If I said you were pretty
Would you be flattered?
Or would it just be awkward
Because I'm a little awkward?
Can I say that I find you interesting?
That I enjoy talking with you?
Or does everything get weird
Once I've actually said it?
Or can I even get the words out?
Will anxiety get the best of me?
Will I keep my thoughts and words
Trapped within out of fear?
Will that feeling rise up
That swirling feeling in my gut
That causes me to hold back words?
Or maybe I can say you're pretty
And it will be OK...

Moonless Sky

A moonless sky hangs overhead
Like a great gray canvas
As if to beckon me forward
To paint my visions upon it
But what could I paint across the sky?
Visions of you are all that seem fitting
As it is the only thing beautiful enough
To fill the heavens and still be not enough
If I painted the morning and night
With visages of your radiance
I would still need a larger canvas yet
If I were to truly cast the magnificence
That I hold so dearly in my mind

Was Is Am

Ghostly apparitions
Appearing in my sleep
Causing me to wake
But what did I see?
A spectre of the past?
A vision of the future?
Was I afraid of who I was?
Or was I more afraid
Of who I would be?
Or was I simply dreaming
About who I am?
Or could it be
I don't know who
I was, is, or am becoming?
I roll over
And hope this time
That I dream of nothing...

Rise Above

I hit the wall
Can my limits go no further?
Again and again
I smash into it
And again and again
It knocks me down
But I'm not concerned
With the getting knocked down
The only thing I'm worried about
Is the getting back up
Because no limit can hold me
If this wall won't move
Then I'll smash through
Pushing my limit
Beyond anything thought possible
And I will be the impossible
Rising to the challenge
Going beyond the limit break
Nothing can hold me down
And nothing can hold me back
I may be hitting a wall right now
But my mind is already seeing it
Smashed into oblivion
That every time I hit the ground
The image becomes clearer
And I will break through
I will go beyond
I will break free
I will exceed my limits
I will never stop
I will rise above this
Just you watch

Night Solitaire

I curl up under a blanket
And I begin to fall asleep
And in my dreams you're always there
It is in this twilight
Between walking life and fantasy
That I see your beauty fair
My eyes open to twinkling lights
But when they close again
I can reach out and touch your hair
Something stirs once more
And I slip awake again
To feel the cold and empty air
So with another blanket
I summon up my dreams
To let my senses become aware
To feel your body close to mine
To smell you once again
A sensation without compare
And pray this dream will last
Until the break of dawn
To escape night solitaire

Snowy Fields

Across the snowy fields

I follow your footsteps

Seeking for only you

Just to see you once more

Though feet may feel heavy

Your face warms my being

And I can continue

Seeking one I adore

The cold may be biting

My face may become numb

When I think about you

I regain my vigor

A white veil before me

But I never forget

The passion of your touch

That moves me to my core

I carry on renewed

When my legs cannot move

A thought of you with me

My spirits you restore

So, through the frozen lands

My legs carry me on

Until they deliver me

To fall upon your door

And if this is but dream

When I’m with you again

Oh! Let me sleep my friend

Upon your sunlit shore

Make You Smile

I stirred myself awake

And wondered

If I exploded a thousand suns

To light up the heavens

In a dazzling array of light and color

Would it look like a candle

When compared to your beauty?

Could I ever hope to replicate

How magnificent you are

When viewed through my eyes?

I could type a thousand lifetimes

And still not find the right words to say

But I would spend them all

Searching for the ones

That would make you smile

A Cold World

I sit alone in the dark
Looking out at a cold world
Wondering what you’re doing
Where you are right now
Are you sleeping?
Are you under a blanket?
Watching TV?
Maybe you too
Are sitting alone in the dark
Looking out at a cold world
And if you are
Do you ever think of me?
The way I think of you?
Do our thoughts cross paths
In the stillness of the night?
So many questions
But so few answers
And even if I had them
I’m not sure what I would do
So I simply wonder
As I sit alone in the dark
Looking out at a cold world
Knowing it is still warm within my heart

Friends

In a lifelong journey
To understand who I am
I have always wondered
Who I want to be
And the answer that I have found
Is that I want to be
The kind of friend
That the people around me
Deserve to have in their lives

I'm Still Here

I sometimes wonder about you
About what could have been
I didn’t really know you
Simply a silly crush
From an awkward high school boy
To a pretty girl
Just a year my junior
I’m not sure you even knew me
Maybe who I was
After that time I sent you flowers
Because I wasn’t sure what else to do
All I knew was what I imagined
I still sometimes imagine
What might have been
What could have been
All those years ago
I’d wonder where you are now
But I know
That doesn’t take imagination
Because you’re dead
And I’m still here
Holding nothing but memories
Of something that was never really there